Sadness

Six weeks ago we submitted our home study on a three-year-old boy.  This was one of the few emails we received that actually had  a picture attached with the description.  He was the cutest thing I'd ever seen.  While I tried hard not to get too attached I failed pretty miserably, especially here at the end.  I just really hoped this would be the one...

Well today we found out that we will not be getting him.  They are working at placing him with a family member, which is good for him but gut wrenchingly sad for us.  This is the third time we've reached that six week mark only to find out the process hasn't even started.  I feel so sad and so numb at the same time...if that's possible.  

When everything feels so empty it is hard to see how it will work out.  It is hard to keep the faith.

God,

Whatever's in front of me help me to sing hallelujah.