Thank you Facebook

I think there are moments in life when people or words cross our path for a purpose...at just the right moment when we need them the most and they speak to us.  They speak to us in a way that's, I don't know, are profound and intimate.  They speak directly to the heart, and tell us what we need to hear, know, and even cling to in that moment.  Some may call it coincidence, but I believe it something bigger, bigger than any of us.

Just yesterday I was looking at my calendar and realized we hit that four week mark waiting for Baby Boy.  Now we are entering that ambiguous part of the four to six week window in which we should hear something about him.  

Part of me feels relief...we will have our answer soon.  I just have to make it another fourteen days.  Another part of me feels anxious and scared because as we saw with Little Girl, anything could happen. As with her, we could reach week six only to find out the process has not even begun and may never.  In these moments you want to cling to hope, but yet hope can be such a dangerous emotion.

And then today I logged on to Facebook.  I saw that I had a notification.  It was from a page I liked called Messages From God.  I can't remember when I liked the page, but today was the first day I opened it.  This is what it said:

 All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger 

    picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should.

Those words didn't magically take the pain, sadness, or anxiety away.  No, those are still close to my heart.  Until I have a child in my arms that is completely and forever mine, those will always be there...the proverbial thorn in my flesh.  But...it did remind me that there is a child out there for us.  One that is meant specifically for Shawn and me, and that precious little one is worth the wait.  

No, it didn't' take the hurt away, but it refocused my hope from my situation back to my God.  It gave me the strength to keep walking in the midst of it all.