I've had this new post up for about two days now. I've written and deleted about five times, trying to think of something clever to say. I've been putting off updating because I've been hoping that today will be the day. Today I will get to email you and tell you that we will be parents...but sadly that day hasn't come.
Each day weighs a little heavier on me than the day before. I feel more anxious, nervous, and frustrated. I hate waiting in general, but waiting for something as incredible as this is almost excruciating. When people try to comfort me by telling me its worth the wait, it only makes me more frustrated. I KNOW that is true, but my heart has a hard time following suit and it aches.
So we are still waiting. We've been waiting for 5 1/2 weeks for little girl and 2 weeks for baby boy.
God, help me to trust your perfect timing. Whatever's in front of me...rejection, parenthood, more waiting, the unknown, happiness, heartache, whatever...help me to say hallelujah.
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